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Snow Storms

The storms won’t stop. 

We counted five white out storms in just one day last week. It is currently March and feels like the weather should clear up. 

Yet the storms keep coming. 

We all have been hit by storms in the past three years. Illness, weakened body, over taxed mind and spirit, fears multiplying everyday, loneliness, doubt, and an overwhelming sense of impending doom. 

It is all too much. 

I was talking to my sister and she said, “I hope I’m through with this stage of grief.” 

Then it hit me. 

We have all been dragged through a death. 

The death of what we knew. 

Life will never be the same again. 

In pre-2020 I enjoyed a good movie, however over the past year I’ve tried to watch some old favorites. Most of them feel fake. It’s like, for years we’ve been, “snowed,” by lies of safety. Before, I performed daily tasks unaware of the precariousness of our nation’s normalcy. These storms however, have not caught us all unaware. Even so that doesn’t matter, the storm keeps coming, blocking what’s on the horizon.

Storms, especially a white out, make it hard to see. You can only view what is immediately in front of you. The lack of clarity is dangerous. 

In this current storm, take precautions. 

  1. Pray before you step. 
  2. Let your grief from the loss of your past wash over you with wisdom. 
  3. Feel each cycle, denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.
  4. Ask yourself, “What stage of grief am I at?” 

I feel like I have been cycling through several stages at once. The result being flight, flight, or freeze. One cannot be prepared, or defend one’s self from the oncoming onslaught unless one steps out of survival mode. The only remedy I’ve found for the fear that keeps us in survival mode is love. Pray for love, the love of God to flood your mind, heart, and spirit. Then listen and move forward, out of the storm, find shelter, and be at peace. 

All storms have a reason and a purpose, and all storms bring new growth. 

I envision life blossoming before us as we choose the path of wisdom.  

“Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, it empties today of its strength.”

–Corrie Ten Boom

“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.”

–Bob Marley

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind,” 

2 Timothy 1:7

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After the shock of loss there is a certain restlessness that sets in – and you just want to do something, anything to ease the loss, to make things a little better.  It is in this place of restlessness that The Course of Wisdom becomes very effective.  If you have lost someone you love, dreams, hopes, all that seemed to make your world make sense . . . reach for the next best step as you work each stage of loss.  

The Course of Wisdom:  A Practical Workbook Honoring the Five Stages of Loss, available on Kindle.

 

May you heal and value the wisdom you have gained during this time of loss. 

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Thorns and Beauty

These are Peace roses, beautiful with killer thorns. Honestly the most lovely things are not without flaws.
 
That is why I created Breakthrough Yoga which functions perfectly a part of The Course of Wisdom.  Our beings need harmony.  In order to do this we must acknowledge the thorns, but see the roses.  All of us have beliefs, some support us and our journey, while others destroy any hope of dreams.  And as these are called Peace roses, peace cannot truly be known unless one has experienced the Pain.
 
When one can let go of internal beliefs like:
 
I’ll never be enough
I don’t have what it takes
If I change I’ll destroy my family
No one will love the real me
Nothing will ever change, why try
 
Then we dare to try something different, to be brave and think:
 
I was created to live my life
I have what it takes to fulfill my mission
I am somebody and I am successful
The real me is a star that’s already shining
Change is inevitable, and I choose the most beautiful changes for my life now
 
Then action follows.  We peel back the layers of years of self abuse, codependency, hate, and we see possibilities.
 
This leads to:
 
more kindness to ourselves and others
faith in something greater than us and the hell we have been through
love that is unconditional
bravery to leap into our dreams
hope that we can heal
 
I have seen miracles happen over and over, lives that had fallen apart, mended with more beauty than ever before.
 
Envision for yourself a simply stunning life, and make it happen.
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Course of Wisdom : The Beginning

It happened the day before the Freedom Festival.  In fact, and I was on the way to have my eyelashes filled.  All of this was so ordinary.  As usual when driving I assess my beliefs and emotional state.  Immediately I had a negative belief that popped up, quite forcefully. 
 
NB:  “I hate my stomach.”
 
What?  Where did that come from?  When I started doing the steps of Breakthrough Therapy I found that it originated from middle school pre-algebra.  I remember sitting so carefully trying to not be noticed, holding in my gut so tight.  I looked down at my stomach and thought, “I hate you.”
 
We talk to our body all the time.  Usually it is with hate and disgust.  There I was at most a size six, and I hated my own guts.  If I couldn’t love myself then, how could I through three 50 lb pregnancy weight gains, and any physical development past 40. 
 
I continued the breakthrough and learned:
 
1) Satan wanted to destroy my body
2) God designed me perfectly for what I needed to learn on Earth
3) That I have treated my core terribly
4) That I honestly love my stomach, gut, extra tire, or core
 
How did I go from hate to love?
 
I realized what our core really is:
 
1) It is a spiritual guidance system.  Have you ever heard someone say, “I felt it in my gut,” or “Something about it made me feel queasy.”  If you hate your gut, how can you trust your gut?
2) It is a filter system.  Everything passes through our core, it saves our lives daily sorting out all harmful elements and even providing fat to encapsulate the toxins.  A sure sign of love is cellulite that protects our organs, so we can continue to function no matter the mental and physical abuse that we dump on ourselves.
3) It is the source of energy for our entire life.  It processes all nutrients and gifts us with the ability to do everything we do.
4) It creates life:  Women and men both have the components to create life.  This amazing ability, at what ever state (age, malfunction, etc) especially needs love.  Our society is very twisted about this gift.
 
Essentially our gut is the core of our being.  Physically and Spiritually it is the center of each life.  How can we hate that?  And if we do, we end up stuffing our intuition with food instead of listening, or treating our core as disgusting or an object.  Revere your core, treat it’s powers with respect and care. 
 
From that very ordinary moment, driving, I have loved my core.  For the first time since pre-algebra, I loved the core of who I am.  This has led, to me listening to my core, taking care of my core, and talking to my core.
 
No longer do I think, “I hate you,” instead I say out loud, “I love you.  I am sorry for abusing you. What do you really want and need?” and “thank you for taking care of me.”
 
Three days after this experience I told my core, “I am listening to you now.”  The utterly relieved and sarcastic response I received back was, “Finally, it’s about time.”   
 
Isn’t it about time we listen?  Some say the core is the center of all medical and mental issues, I say if it is the problem it can also be the center of all healing.
 
 
Follow me on this journey.  I’ll be detailing how to listen, receive, and honor the core of who you are.