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New Believable Story

What kind of baggage do you carry from your ancestors? 

Think about it for a minute. 

What kind of wars, struggles, deprivation, injuries, or isolation have those that have gone before you experienced? 

Families carry learned responses and fears. Sometimes it’s easy to connect those responses to the Great Depression, abuse, particular wars, starvation, etc. Have you been triggered by someone tossing out things without your permission, flinched from sudden movements or loud noises, gone into panic if pantry shelves are low, and then wondered if your response was out of proportion? 

Perhaps it is not entirely your response. We come with baggage that is both learned and genetic. We carry in our code the experiences of our past family. 

I bring this up because many people push, hate, and criticize themselves. And it puts them into fight, flight, or freeze. 

We cannot be in peace and create, when in this state of mind. 

What can be done about this? 

First forgive yourself and picture a believable new story.

For example:  I am dealing with fear of communicating. Where did it come from? Partly from my experience and partly from my ancestors. I can release the fear from myself and my ancestors then I can form a new story. How do you release it? There are many ways but the simplest is to breathe and let your mind show you the root experience. Let your mind flow till you see an important experience. Know that this experience is a pattern of what has happened in the past. Watch the experience from a new point of view, with love. See it from the point of view of your Savior, your mom, your friend. Write a new meaning for this experience. 

Now imagine a hammer demolishing all the fear inside you, then breathe it out. Do this till you start yawning. This is your body’s response showing you that it is shifting. 

Next fill your body with light that has new instructions that will show you a new pattern, new mantra, new belief. 

Repeat this in your mind and heart, love yourself. 

This is a gradual cumulative process. Over the years you can peel off the layers of the past and view all experience as love. 

Love is not permissiveness, love is not favoritism, love is truth and mercy. 

Tell yourself the truth, be kind, form a new pattern. 

Ask God to guide your journey. Then let go of all your issues, one at a time, and let go of the weight of the past. 

Breathe. 

Smile. 

Be.  



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Rebirth

It is beneficial to assume that everything that happens to you, is for your good, eventually. I am experiencing this now as I pray and repaint my 12 Step Recovery Series. It was a very good series and I did the best I could at the time. So why am I fixing them?  Are these paintings broken, or inadequate? Or were they just on their first layer of life experience? 

We humans are layers of heartache, mistakes and rebirth. Each layer is a fracture, beautifully broken. Remember beauty is not pretty, or trendy, it is all your difficult and easy experiences woven together. We are all layered beings who have not given up, and that alone is stunning.

As an artist I desire to move up to my next layer, but it seems impossible. I have heavy responsibilities and my health has suffered. 

Blessedly God is working on me, my life, and talents. I pray, paint, and watch layers of mistakes become the missing puzzle pieces of my composition. How could I have known that my mistakes would add up to a better work of art than anything I could’ve intentionally created? What God is creating through me is greater than my hopes. What God is creating of me layer by layer, is humbling. 

As we all begin this New Year, I pray we can all be reborn in spirit as powerful beings that God is forming, layer by layer and step by step.

Tune in over the next few weeks I'll be up loading the "Reborn 12 Step Paintings." As this process unfolds ask yourself how you can delve through your own layers and allow yourself to be reborn. You deserve every kind question, every beautiful layer.

“A rebirth out of spiritual adversity causes us to become new creatures.”

– James E. Faust.

I agree.